im going to take a shower now. maybe ill stay in there all day. i dont know. i dont know what to do. i cant calm down. i cant do anything. i literally want to die. i feel like im dying every second. i want a better life, but since i cant, living is more and more painful every second. i cant breathe. i cant do anything. i want to die. i cant handle this. there is no way i can fight every second about things i am not able to prove. i am fighting against someone who has made up their mind and has problems on top of that, that i made a lot worse. i dont know what to do. if he could only understand that he is not always right, and just step back and relax a little bit, he’d realize things are okay. we’d be able to keep building towards extreme happiness. id make him the happiest man in the world. i promise that. i would make him the happiest man in the world. i need happiness to. i have none. i cant function. i really want to die. i dont know what to do. my life is pointless. i dont know what to do.