Hi, wgjoneswy.
I’ve got no personal experience and not much insight into the effect the divorce of your parents must be having on you.
I can only imagine that you might be feeling quite anxious, quite unsettled, as the structure, the foundation, that was in place when your mom and dad were together, may seem quite unstable, now that they are apart. It can even be quite a traumatic experience, making the transition, to try and adapt to this new situation. I hope your mom and dad are at least trying to reassure you of their love and commitment to being there for you and providing you with a dependable structure – a healthy environment for you to live in.
From what you write, it may be that due to the hurt and conflict between them, that they are not paying enough attention to making sure that you’re alright. It’s a sad reality that people divorce a lot, creating a lot of hurt and emotional turmoil for children.

You’re struggling with this – it was good for you to write out how you’re feeling. If possible, perhaps also talk to a counselor (at school perhaps), as well as with your parents, to tell them that you’re really struggling to cope with the situation, which is understandable; that’s quite a lot to handle, particularly if your parents are in such conflict, and perhaps making you feel as if you have no solid structure. But please try to hang in there, find stuff that you like doing that helps you cope, while also receiving support from others. Keep safe. Take care.