I tried to change my life for good but it doesn’t change. I lied compulsively from my childhood. It might have been an achievement that I didn’t lie to one person I loved for 20 days. He never trusted me on anything I said true but believed everything I lied. Doesn’t God want me to change. I am fed up of everything so took sleeping pills. Even there my hard luck didn’t stop. I survived. No one even believed me that I took pills. I have nothing in my life no friends, no ambition not even a single thing I should live for. Please God let me die. Don’t save me again.
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You are still here. I am so thankful for that. We were created for a purpose. What I have learned after going through much suffering is when we reach the point of no return and have nothing then and only then I believe that God can come into your heart and change you, if you allow him. We have free choice to accept his love or go our own seperate way. But to tap into that awesome power we have to die a deeper death of ourselves. Our selfish ways and ambitions have to go so God can come in and change our hearts and minds. Then and only then can we start living, really living the way it was meant to be after all. We will still struggle but the struggle won’t overwhelm us. Everything happens for a reason and you are still here. It is not your time yet.
I think your like me. You want to live but just tired. The truth is if you really wanted to die you could do it. Maybe you took a sleeping pill less subconsciously so that you didn’t die. Ive cried for help my whole life lol. probably since i was 6 and no one ever listened to me. they still dont. and i sound like a hypocrite considering i just posted on here not to long ago about wanting to die but i read this and just feel like you will be ok. For whatever reason we are ment to be here and one of these days something great will happen to you and you will grab your tough past and use it as strength. just know your not alone. there are plenty of us out there dragging on day by day wishing we were gone but were still here. ull be ok 🙂
I just heard when u tell one lie u have to tell ten more lies to hide the first one and in this way the chain of lies develops.
i think 20days are not enuf to love sum1.
If he loves u he will believe u.
just try to strt speaking truth and one day evry1 will believe.
Just take a try.