I have seizures constantly. I can never sleep now. Both of these things are driving me insane.
My family has always been pretty useless and only really cares about themselves. They do the bare bones minimum. I want nothing to do with them, not after all the stuff they put me through. Not after all the countless days I had to have seizures alone while they just did nothing.
Now I am bed ridden most of the day and night. I am slipping more and more. I have no idea how long I can physically or mentally hold up. I cant justify why I should live. No Dr. has had any bright ideas. They don’t take my seizures seriously and because of that they are uncontrolled.
I don’t have anyone to really talk to anymore. I am desperate for anything to make sense anymore.
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Is there no social worker or disability lawyer you can talk to? If you have debilitating seizures you need to be taken care of somehow – why won’t a doctor believe you? If they’re bad enough to make you suicidal what could it be?
That is a good question and i’ve tried to find a health advocate. But no luck. I have Dr.s who believe these are epileptic, some who think they aren’t and some who think they are caused by something they haven’t found. Either way my body isn’t holding out.
I can’t function at all in the day time, when I would need to make phone calls and figure these things out. It’s a catch 22, and I have a feeling I will end up in the hospital. Maybe that is for the best. At least there they can see it and put me on a med to stop them. It worked once, maybe it will work again.
Yes, maybe you could go to a hospital and get yourself regulated enough to make those calls and figure out everything, then get back on your feet again. I hope that everything can work out for you in time, even if it isn’t easy it’ll be worth the benefits.
I dont wanna scare you, but did dr. take picture of your head or spine?