Well this is my first post

This is my first post. I recently lost a family member to suicide. My family member used helium. I never knew about this was of suicide out of all my years of searching for a method. I did see that ******** will cause the person not to panic as the helium could. Having a panic disorder this is my only turn off. But both seem very painless. Before discovering this method sole only reason who I never went through with it was because of pain. Now that I have found a painless way to go I have to start saving the money. I want to go with ******** but it is expensive. Anyway I’m really not in the mood to go into my back story tonight. Maybe another night.