I never thought i would ask for help in such an unknown place. I genuinely feel like im a black mark on the earth and all i do is create sadness.i try so hard to cope and its not good enough. I fail at everything i try and do and i am trying to push everyone i can away from me because i dont know how to talk to anybody anymore.
i used to be very confident and a happy person all round and i still find the good in everything i can accept myself. Now all i want to do is hide. Ive suffered from panic attacks at work and as a result am unemployed. Nothing i do seems to help and for so so long ive wanted to just put an end to all of this. I never have because i love my mother so much and it would kill her, but recently i am struggling so much i honestly cannot see any other option.
im so scared to ask for help, from anyone and everyone but found this site and thought possibly it may be something to consider as i can cry and im not weak for doing so.
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Hey there, listen I totally understand what you’re going through. I can relate with you on this. I don’t have a job neither and I’m 16 but I still want a job and I kinda get panic attacks too. And please forgive me for trying to connect with you on this if you actually need a job because you’re past teenage years but I’d like to give you hand if you may let me. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. Besides if I noticed this from you in person I’d totally help you out just because I’m only human and I love helping people out. It’s just sorta my thing. And it’s not weak to ask for help. I thought the same too but in reality it shows how strong you are because you want to overcome this struggle. And the crying just shows how badly you want this to change. And I mean you’re only human. I cry too.
Hi,
Most jobs are results from volunteerism. Have you tried to volunteer somewhere? Look for some non-profit organizations to volunteer at. If you are good, they WILL FIND money to hire you…even if it starts off part time. Also, I don’t know where you live, there are many One-stop career centers funded by the federal government. They have job searching for free, and they have resume and cover writing for free to everyone.
Make use of these services. They are your tax money at work.
Take good care of yourself.
You just reminded me of part of a poem, so I thought I’d share it with you..
“Ah, love, let us be true
To one another! for the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,
Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night.”
It’s the last stanza of the poem “Dover Beach” by Matthew Arnold.