im struggling to even type this as i don’t want to waste anyones time, i am a 31 year old man from scotland and i believe i have reached my end , i am always sad , i have failed to even get a job in the past 4 years, it feels as though my friends and family have no time for me (so much so i tried to talk to them about my deep depression and wanting to end my life , the subject got changed to them almost instantaniously) . i have been single 5 years now and feel so alone , i thought i would try this first , i can understand partly why my friends and family just brush off my sadness as i used to be the laugher and joker who would act as though i was invincible, but i have faded into the background so much i feel they wouldn’t even notice my absense, im in constant pain physically (back surgery helped but still in pain) and emotionally, i have tried so hard to improve my life but it always fails, what i need is a reason to keep fighting, i will read any advice given ( apart from religous advice, i respect a lot of people are religous but i am not and don’t like it very much) thanks for taken the time to read this
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I totally relate. 31 years old, spine disorder, feeling like the world is just coming down on me, and so so alone.
Well I fixed the alone part, but it took getting over my own sadness and getting my life together.
Life isn’t perfect at all, in fact it still ranges in the “really sucky” to “kinda less sucky” range, but I can accept it and appreciate it for what it is.
My advise… Well I don’t know enough about you to give you advise but I can tell you you need to take steps, and focus on the bigger hurtles in your life. If you have bad habits, nows the time to quit them. No time for horse racing bets and cigs cuz pulling yourself out of a 5 year slump isn’t easy. And you have to have faith in yourself because no one can do this for you. Only you can.
What are your job skills or experience? College?
I don’t know what advice to give you. If I ever find a solution, I’ll be sure to let you know.
I can only extend empathy to you. The way we walk is so hard. It’s ineffable. No one can describe it. I hope you take heart knowing that you are not the only one walking this road. We walk it together.
At least that’s why I’m here. Each day we survive and live is an accomplishment. Other mitigating details mean little when you fight for your life daily. So good job that you keep going day after day. No one will ever know how difficult that is for you.
And I got your back via this anonymous, depression oriented forum.
I Have a degree in business management and over 12 years retail experience ..
and thank you it is good to know people understand
And there hasn’t been anything in your area available? 4 years is a long time to be out of work. Your not too old to switch careers. Can you work with your hands? I have this really bad spine disorder and I can still work with my hands. Any options?
There are jobs available i just get the you are over qualified or you don’t have enough practical experience response