Regarding myself.

I’m a worthless creature I don’t deserve to live I want everybody to leave me alone but they just don’t they are always just over there. I’m a disappointment to everyone who really knows me. I’m full of shit so why don’t people just let me be. I prefer myself when I’m alone. I don’t like to set around with my family they do not accept who I am or understand me they see a glance of who really I am and they do not like it but they are good people and I don’t deserve having them. I don’t want them near me because I do not want to hurt them I’m already a failure to them. I gradually started separating myself from my friends although they are the world to me. The career that was just waiting for me is gone. I do not want anything. I’m stuck. I can’t move forward or backwards. Being in this position is agonizing. I’m sad. I’m a defeated person. Nothing really interests me much. My life does not interest me. I’m in the wrong time and the wrong place. Everything around brings me sorrow. I’m not able to live I do not want to live. How can I exit with causing only minimal pain to those around me? Thank you.