When the alarm clock sets off first thing in the morning and you know you’ve got to face another day. What are your thoughts and feelings then?
For me it is horror, dread and confusion (confusion because when I’m dreaming I see myself in a healthy body, doing things in a better world, and feel that that place is real, until I wake up to reality). I often will shake or even convulse at waking up.
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I cry when I wake up usually…just BECAUSE I woke up…Sleep to me is waking death. I…I just don’t want to wake up…I have insomnia though, so whatever sleep I do get is bliss…I’m sorry that you feel this way, I really do hope it gets better 🙁
I wake up with a grudge at myself for having to deal with a job I hate and a world I dislike
Iron-clad system of rules, numbers and units are my first thoughts at the start of each new day and honestly, sometimes it can drive me loco. Emptiness…
No alarm clock for me, rach; but, I did feel rather irritated that I woke up today … Oh sleep, blissful sleep – envelop me in your arms and never let me go…
“alarm clock” is about the worst first sound to hear upon awakening. The feeling it causes me is about the worst feeling possible, with which to begin a day.
I honestly can’t handle the whole alarm-clock, report for compulsory servitude each morning, routine. I can’t do it. Not only am i both physically and mentally unable to do it, i also refuse to live that way.
I would rather do nothing at all, than be required to do something i hate.
And if i am unable to avoid being required to do something i hate… then people better watch out, because i’m not a very nice person when i feel enslaved. I sometimes feel like i’m just waiting for anyone to give me any justifiable excuse to literally rip them to pieces.
But i fight it. I find the best way is to simply disconnect. There is no other effective solution available to me.
So yeah. I suppose you could say that “when i hear an alarm clock upon waking” i feel like i never want to hear another alarm clock, for the rest of my life.
Not everyone dreads waking up in the morning but people usually depict themselves more favourably when they are dreaming.
You seem to be experiencing the life/dream paradox. I just made that disorder up and it is unlikely anyone would have ever found out if I hadn’t admitted it.
Anyway, I think it hurts a little bit when you think everyone gets to have essential human experiences and you are the only person not having fun. A substantial portion of the worlds population are quite unappealing.
Life isn’t a win or lose scenario. If we were running in a race we’d probably not try so hard as soon as we looked beaten. life is different; prizes extend all the way down to last place for finishing and generally, most people can find some reason to prolong their miserable existence.
You probably need to learn how to daydream too. There is nothing wrong with that.
I use to try waking up to classical music but that got too depressing! lol
My first thought every morning is “shit”, then “this is gonna hurt”, and last “this fucking sucks”!!!
And I think I’ll always ask the question.. “Why do I have to do this?”
Yeah it’s not easy, I wake up with bad pain too.
Um mine plays brass monkey or all around me or kiss me so its not too bad. I wake up before my clock so when it goes off it means get out of bed and get ready for work idiot. Thats about it.
Oh and a fifth of beethoven ;3
I hate myself for waking up to reality everyday….Sometimes I have these EXTREMELY lucid dreams where Im back in the old days and literally can see every detail and not know its a dream and I will be happy and then all of a sudden I open my eyes and………….I instantly get this sunken feeling of regret for thinking a dream was reality…..Even when I dont dream I still feel a sense of dread waking up to face the same thing over again….
How many of you people have to wake up at 3am every day to work..for the rest of your natural lives?
That’s me!! 🙁 …..lol
4:30 am is my alarm. 3am is my insomnias wake up time after finally closing my eyes a few hours before. Then ten hour shift till 4. Get home at 5 XD i really am trying to go back to school next spring. I miss using everything I learned in school despite hating homework i loved tye actual subjects even pre-cal (was dumb enough to fail a class on purpose which is why i wasnt in statistics or calculous) :L
I’ll tell you all one of my saddest experiences. I’d had the most beautiful dream. I have to wonder where a dream this incredible this beautiful even came from it was like a gift from god. I was just in this paradise I was riding horses along the cliffs in – let’s call it- heaven. I was jumping off these huge cliffs into the crystal clear ocean. My body was perfect no scars, no deformity, no pain. And inevitably the alarm clock goes off and immediately I am sent back to hell. These are the kind of experiences that are so upsetting to me that I will have convulsions of shock and fear when I wake, because of the jarring disconnect between dream world and real world. Real world is that I will never swim, I will never jump, I will never run, I will never play, I will never ride a horse……….and these are the thoughts that come crashing in as I wake from a dream
For those of you that have to wake at 3 and 4 AM you have my sympathies. That must be horrible