As I researched various ways to exit and review all my wasted and painful years I thought “I might as well take care of my plants”. They needed repotting and I’m clueless. So a very nice woman at the gardening store repotted my plants and explained the basics. She wouldn’t accept any money. She was a good egg. Very rare these days. She even wiped off the dirt on the outside of the pots though I offered to do it myself. So even though I’m in great pain I’m glad my plants are doing well and have room to grow. They look happy in their new pots. I envy their resilience & peacefulness. They are hardy plants that only need to be watered once a week. If I check out they should make it. I think I would be discovered in about three days so…this lady was a 1000 times nicer to me than my own family. A very giving person. Maybe gardening makes people this way.
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Two months ago I bought a vase of white kalanchoe flowers – but they died a few days ago *facepalm* I don’t really know why, I used to water my plant and check it everyday.
I usually feel horrible when people are kind to me, I feel so unworthy of that treatment. I try to stay away from people since I plan to end my life soon, it’s unfair for me to establish relationships with them and then burn them so quickly with something as devastating as death.
This is totally irrelevant but the typing error (i’m assuming it was an error) “She was a good egg. Very rare these days” made me laugh
Maybe the lesson here is to “re-pot” yourself to a place where your roots have more room to grow and spread.
Decent people aren’t as rare as everyone thinks 😉
Cornaceae dawg
Gardening is relaxing; it teaches you to think like a plant, which is to say, to not think that much and just do stuff. I’ve only met a few mean gardeners and I’d frankly hate to be one of their plants. I shudder at the thought.
@Stendarr …actually it wasn’t a typing error. Glad it made you laugh.
@dawg I think ending things is re-potting yourself. Your soul maybe gets to go somewhere else.
@lorax If I ever feel better I’d love to spend an afternoon gardening, planting in a nice garden with good soil.
@Tristeza I found out I was watering my plants too much, I was letting them get too much sun.
Try it, even if you aren’t feeling better yet. It’s one of the only thing that helps me these days.
@thinkimready “too much sun” – yes, I guess that’s why they died.
Wait, is ‘egg’ slang for something, what am I not getting here?
@Stendarr. It’s a common phrase in my area, calling someone “a good egg”. 🙂
Ah, I’ve never heard that expression before, I took it literally haha, you learn something new every day 🙂
There are a few diamonds out there. Too bad none of them are in my family…. Most people aren’t this way though its rare to meet a person like that.
Those are the angels and maybe you should start gardening