I just realized today that almost every decision that I make has two choices, the thing that i want and the right answer, the thing that other people want to hear you say. And I hate that looking at my life now makes me realize that I have never don anything for myself and I rarely get what I want because it has almost become instinct to just say what everyone wants to hear. And this kills me inside because I know that I can try and try to do what everyone else wants me to do but in the end, Im mot making other people and happier and Im relly just making my life more and more miserable. Im pulling myself into the pit.