I was just curious what everyone was up to right now in their real lives? I know you are probably just checking in or maybe even hanging out on SP.. So what are you doing right now?
It’s early morning for me so I’ve been up for 2 hours taking medicine and commenting on posts. But now I’m back in bed writing this. Soon I will be hungry enough to make breakfast. Might just have cereal today. π I’m feeling ok today.my spine is acting up causing a pain down my leg but I’m trying to stretch a bit without waking my wife. Hmm..
So what are you up to?
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I was going to sleep in today since I stayed up until 3 last night, but there was a lot of thunder and rain this morning so it woke me up and I can’t go back to sleep. There hasn’t been thunder here in a while, I don’t remember it being so scary, loud, sudden noises terrify me. I really shouldn’t have had ice cream for breakfast, I feel even more shittier haha. I’m listening to the birds outside my window, I’ll miss them when they fly away when it gets cold. I might go read for a bit, I’m reading “The Ethnic Cleansing of Palestin” by Ilan Pappe. It’s about the 1948 Palestinian exodus. I’m definitely not a history person, but the Palestinian people are such a popular controversial topic I’d hate to be ignorant of their background. I might go have some orange juice, my head hurts. I’ll probably come back here and lurk. Good to see you RT π
I wake up wanting to die, almost every day. Breakfast is for rich folk, and has become a bit of a foreign concept, to me. I bet it would be nice to have a mobile device, but i’ll never know. I bet medicine is nice to have as well.
Suicidal ideation is a standard of ever day life, but I try to keep it in the back of my mind until I have a breakdown or a mood swing. I normally don’t eat breakfast on the days I work, but I’ve got Sunday and Saturday off. I finally got around to getting a fancy smartphone a few months ago. I should say it’s because I need it to stay in contact with ‘friends’ and ‘family’ and to use it to organize my life better, but lets be honest – I just need it to keep playing ‘Clash of the Clans’.
@SB- it’s good to see you too! π Ice cream for breakfast? lol I’ve been there, yeah it’s not the greatest feeling afterwards! hehe I think that’s great that your educating yourself on the background of another country. And as far as the thunder and sudden noises.. I am quite the opposite. Most likely I hardly flinch at sudden noises, it’s like I’m constantly expecting a surprise fom somewhere. But I still get surprised and even shook up from time to time. lol
@clevername- I would think that bitterness could be enough to sustain you? π
I’m getting up early to go have blueberry pancakes with a friend… then off to work. Going to friends will involve 30k of biking and i’m trying to will myself into doing that. All based around my idea that i isolate myself too much and have to get out more and see people.
for some reason i came on here first.
@SB
yep. i got a cel because i needed it to play Castleville. A habit i can now say i’ve finally broken.
Just being a loser and moping around all morning maybe ill have a cigerete and go back to sleep Γ°ΕΈΛβ
good for you, waking up in a good mood is always a good start to the day
Well some days aren’t so good. There are days when I cant believe I got a full nights sleep, those days I feel like I’m dragging and I don’t want to do anything at all. But it helps knowing I can take some cannabis medicine every morning. It’s the first thing I reach for..keep that in mind.
“…think that bitterness could be enough to sustain you?”
Bitter? That felt pretty neutral and ‘matter-of-fact,’ to me.
I suppose most of reality might seem quite bitter, viewed through sugar-filled eyes.
Some people take their coffee black. I like sugar and cream. Maybe that’s why i hate my life so much.
Nice post, RT. It’s nice to focus on the moment, hear what others are doing, and try to take a break from the overwhelming, all-encompassing cloud of pointless existence to talk about blueberry pancakes and such π
I woke up and checked out a youtube channel called charliejames1975 (a bunch of hot girls doing workout stuff… very inspiring). Got motivated to do a workout myself. After my 2nd set I figured “what’s the point” and took a nap for 2 hours. Woke up and finished my workout, just because I hate unfinished business.
Did a bunch of other things, but they all amounted to nothing so there’s no point in talking about them. Overall it’s a crappy day, but at least I had a workout.
@CN lol I love your views on life & coffee
This morning I finished writing a letter, an actual hand written letter to a friend. I think penmanship and the use of pen, paper and a stamp are becoming a dying art. Bringing back the pen-pal system….ohhhh yeah.
I also made Belgium waffles and ate them with fresh fruit.
Waffles are my favorite.
I sketched out a rooster standing on a cheese wedge. I’ll be painting it later this afternoon.
And at this very moment I’m taking a break from the paperwork of chemical atrocity lingering on my desk.
@clevername- you always have creative answers. And I hope you know I was just kidding..I’m sure you do. lol
@C.O.M.- thanks! π lol and your right about taking a moment to take a moment! And I like how you can’t leave things unfinished. Might I suggest you eat something today and forget about that fasting idea! lol
@odd- I think that’s great you feel that way about writing letters…And waffles! Sounds like you are very creative as well. π
@RT:
I figured you were “just kidding,” but it was funny because it wasn’t entirely false. π
Oh good..so you got it! lol hehe π
The same thing I do everyday……
@clevername- your comment made me think though. I know exectly what you mean about breakfast being a foreign concept. It’s only in recent years that I’ve started forcing myself to eat breakfast, lunch and not just eating one meal a day. So I guess it is still significant when I do eat. I have to be proud of myself for the little things. Don’t forget I look at things from the view point of recovery, to living a “normal” life. I think even you can find your short road to “recovery”.
@pain- …which is?
I’m sort of trying to go to bed. and thinking of taking some tranquilisers. But instead I just keep sitting here staring into space.
Awww.. Well I hope you can sleep soon.
….wake up….wonder why I am still living……think about the past……get on SP….watch a few movies online…..eat something…….think about the past….use the bathroom……maybe watch T.V….. think about the past….then sleep….then the cycle repeats….maybe not in this exact order but its the same thing
You need something to keep you busy brotha!! How long has this routine been going on?
since Sept 19 of last year….that’s when I lost the last job I had….and I do have something to keep me busy…..the internet….movies…..and my meticulous planning of death
I meant besides that! lol but I get ya!
What else is there to do?….everything else is off limits or I can’t do it because of my problems….going outside? I hate the outdoors and being seen and being around people….getting a job? well the last few I had I lost due to my inability to do an adequate job….. playing video games? they no longer are an interest to me…..
See? This is why people turn to religion!
lol…..or hardcore drugs….
Sleeping. Sleeping. Video games. Battlestar Galactica 2003 series. Um going t make breakfast. I only sleep about 6-7 hours or less during the week cuz….i dunno..i stay up feeling lonely lol ummmmm FOOD p:
Well..right now I have to do laundry..so I will be back.
I don’t feel like doing anything right now..that’s what waking up so early does to me. I need coffee!!
I’m laying in bed high, watching magic school bus. I don’t have anything to do today so I doubt my day will consist of any more than this.