I have nothing left. I am scared all the time. I have a child and I don’t want to leave her. I don’t want to hurt her but I keep get beaten . When he doesn’t beat me I am scared he will. I tried to leave once and he followed me and broke in to the house I am staying. He checks my email, Facebook, my history on computer, my phone. He says he wants me to be happy but when I try he doesn’t want me to tell anyone what he has done.
he beats me.
i have nothing left. Nothing. I put everything in to trying to help him get better. He has pbd . I protect him From his family and they come down on me. They say I am crazy when I ask them not to say or do things that will set him off. They think he is all better. I need out. There is no where I can go.
my baby would go to my parents. she is not his.
I would make it look natural.
i just don’t want to hurt her. Â there is no other warty out.
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Don’t kill yourself because I man is beating on you, leave go to another state call the police, whatever you have to do to get away but do not leave your little girl in this cruel ass world alone she doesn’t deserve that and neither do you
Very few things can cause me to go into a rage and that is people being cruel/mean to others who did nothing to them and men who hit women are the two things that cause me to get really angry. I would not put up with this for even 1 day..even if I had to buy a gun I would. You should not kill yourself over a man like that he is not worth it and idc what his problem is he should not be hitting you he could hit a wall or anything else there is NO EXCUSE FOR IT. But since your not me if I were you I would get my kid and just take off to a relatives house or a friends house and not let him know where you are ever.
If you don’t have friends/relatives go to a battered women’s shelter. Anything is better than thinking about killing yourself and leaving your kid for a man who obviously is a piece of crap if he hits you.
They are right, your life and your daughter’s is worth so much more than that man. Even if you care for this man, you HAVE to get out. Any way you can, even if it means involving the law.
Go to the police, and ask them what to do.
Ask for protection for yourself and your daughter.
They will tell you what to do.
Beating the girlfriend/partner/wife is not legal in any country in the world. It’s a crime, and you are a victim.
Make a report.
Call the child protection and ask what to do.
After he beats you next time, go to the doctor as soon as you can, so you’ll have evidence.
Don’t give up. It’s not you who should die. The place of this guy is called PRISON, not your living room.
And your daughter needs you more than anyone else.
I use to say the same thing… I would never put up with it. I even volunteered at a woman’s shelter… He is so much stronger. I need to stay quite when he hurts me because I can’t let her hear. What she would think if she knew.
I’d love to run away. I work from home. I have a phone line work put in. I can’t just leave how can I support my daughter. She will have my life insurance if I end it all.
If I could get away he would find me and hurt me. Worse.
It is more then hurting me. He has taken and axe to me. He has strangled me,shot a gun, nearly smashed my face in with a frying pan. I can’t get away from it. I dream about it. I have flashes of it when I close my eyes. I can never get away from it.
I don’t want to kill myself because a man beats me. I want to end it all because I just can’t go on with no end in sight. I can’t live with the fact I am one of those woman. I can’t live with the dreams. I am scared ALL the time. I am tired of pretending. I am tired of trying to find ways to keep him from getting angry. I just have nothing left in side me.
I tried to talk to someone about it to get help. I told her just a little of what happened and spent the restof the time telling her it was not so bad because she was going to call social services. he would hurt me. He would not care if Sadie saw. I am trying to protect her from that. I don’t know how else to get out of this.
I have had a couple men do this to me before, and the more they think they can do it and get away with it they never will stop. I have had them strangle me till i was passing/ passed out and punch me and put guns to my head pushed knives to my stomache . I really always hated to be called crazy but when i get angry i really am crazy and so i nearly went to jail 2 years over over jerks like that. If i had to when i saw him coming i would run lock all the doors then run into a room lock the door then hit myself leaving marks then call the police to have him taking away and run back outside when i head the police coming. I would do that every time i saw him coming( i have done this before when i realized physical fights was geting me nowhere and not helping anything) and after doing this ..this put a stop to it. I would do it everytime he raised his voice and put a finger on me. I would record him threatening to kill me to and let them hear that if i were you. I might also take verything in the house after geting evidence of abuse including his stuff and pawn it for money to leave when he wasnt at home then leave far away im sure he cant find u unless u let him. As a last resort i would secretly video tape somehow a few of the beatings, find a way to get money even if i had to pawn my stuff.. then secretly video tape one of the beatings i was geting and use the gun in the middle of it. But then thats things i would resort to if i had to and i really wanted to live. I really am sorry you feel trapped i forget what it must be like to people who are normal and truth is growing up watching my mom/sisters/brothers being beatin has made me a little crazy i guess and thats why i would and have resorted to anything b/c it just makes me so angry that men think they can do it and get away with it and not pay the price for doing it.
Can’t you tell it to your parents?
I know it’s hard, but you must seek for help.
You can’t die because of a woman-beating bastard.
You need a good plan, not a suicide.
Collect evidences, go to the police/woman shelter, tell it to your family.
It’s him who has to feel ashamed not you. This awful thing what happens to you isn’t your fault. It’s never the victim’s fault. I know there are many stupid victim-blamers out there, but please try to ignore them. Just look at them as they were monkeys (they actually ARE).
“What she would think if she knew.”
Don’t think she doesn’t know it. Children are smart, they feel when something goes wrong, especially when it happens to their mother. I think she will be proud of you if you can save yourself from the bastard and escape from there. You will be a role model to her, she will treat you as a hero, and what is the most important, she’ll learn how to avoid such bastards when she’ll be an adult.
Please call your parents and ask for help, and don’t care what they will think of you. That’s your only chance, not the suicide or the life insurance.
Hella has good advice. And if you die, he’ll just go on beating women, maybe even your daughter. He MUST be stopped. He has to go to prison for this, or something, before he continues ruining lives.
When I was four, my mother killed herself. She was bipolar and regardless of how many people loved her, she decided to kill herself anyway.
I’m 18, now. Do you know what I think of her? I hate her. I resent her. I think she was selfish.
Sure, she’s free of pain but I found her body and now all of her pain was left with me. I don’t have any memories of her. I think about her every day.
Do you really want your daughter to think of you that way?
Please don’t leave her. Trust me, it hurts so much. It doesn’t matter if your parents would be with her; she needs a mother, a mother that can look out for her.
I know that things seem awful now. Just think about the people that love you. Live for them. Don’t give him the satisfaction of dying. You think he’ll care? He’ll just move on to the next woman and beat her.
Don’t give u[p your happiness and your daughter’s happiness for a horrible man.
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