You promised at the very least we would always be friends and after all this time, you walk away and never look back and im just supposed to be ok with this. I’m not fucking ok at all!! I HATE MYSELF!! I’m tired of dragging this out and pretending like everything is going to be ok.. it’s NOT ok and I dont have any hope it ever will be.
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Two more months…. and I’m done with this all.
you need to express your emotions to anybody anythingt including me more you kee it in the worse it gets
fuck this friend they don’t deserve your love, sometimes we learn the hard way.
now that things are said and done, it better of the relationship over. Now it will never be the same
Promises which contain the word “always” are ALWAYS lies.
Friends are usually coming and going. Forever friendship is extremely rare, and it’s usually based on some mutual interest.
It’s also hard to me to accept that this is the way how human relationships work.
And when I can’t accept it, I’m called “antisocial”. 🙂
Thanks for all your comments… It really means alot to me. I did deserve it.. I put too many of my problems on him when he has serious ones of his own. Thing is I have borderline personality disorder. It seems more and more when I speak to people who have had interactions with people who have bpd, well, they have horror stories… Im a good person and it kills me inside to think I am this way. But this friend went out of his way, he stayed up with me on the phone night after night when it was bad like this before… he researched bpd and I do feel he gave it a good effort.. but who does that? Who is willing to put that time and effort in, and then to know… i failed yet again… Sick part is I was trying my best… but it’s just not good enough, I had to leave work over a breakdown again….. Thanks again all, but thought I should be less emotional and tell the whole story, as that is only fair… but it’s killing me that today he told me its easy for him to walk away because we are unhealthy together…. does that mean.. that I meant nothing?