Ive never blogged before but I feel this is my last outlet of communication.
I dont understand why I dont have the same feelings as everybody else. I am a new father and I hate my girlfriend, my son and everything my life has become. I hate who I am, the only girl who elicits any emotional response from me has no idea how important she is to me and I cant ever let her know the secrets of the skeletons in my closet.
All I can think is it must be easier to pop myself and start again in the next life…. and if there isnt a next life then Ill be gone so who cares? 10 years from now no one will remember me…. and the world is better that way i feel.
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Heya. Life is hard. Every day we face troubles but it’s usually worth figuring things out. Don’t hate your son. I mean he’s probably really small still you know and not like it’s his fault to be born in here. I mean okay. You are father now. Just think about it. If you did not want this all, you should maybe have thought of it before.
You should talk to your girlfriend. Maybe ask to be weekend alone somewhere so you can clear up your mind? And if you think of other girls why are you with thinking of other girls? Anyways I think you should tell her too. Okay yeah they are pretty bad skeletons but don’t you think she deserves to know?
What next life? No seriously it ends now and here. No next life. This is not some videogame. Of course plenty of people will care. Your son will think about you in ten years and think that why did you do it. Your girlfriend will think of you. That other girl will think of you. Many people will.
So sometimes things get bad. And I think on this page we all know it but you just got to breathe and keep going on. Like hey whats the worst that can happen. It isn’t so bad and usually you can change anything if you really want to.