I started to self harm when i was 7 do to different things. For one i was badly bullied and pushed around by other kids. From age about 7 to age 12 my sister mentally, emotionally, physically, verbally, and sexually abusedme. My parents were devoriced and my mothefr was never around. My dad neglected. me and he mentally, emotionally, and verbally abused me all my life. I did everything around the house a mother & maid together would do. I hated it. I was a super shy kid and i had no friends. I’d listen to all types rock, metal, etc. I was Bisexual and very different. I wasent like most girls I was anorexia, severely depressed, sself harming, had anxiety, eating dissorder, ADHD, suicidal thoughts, night terrors, and a few more things. I also heard voices within my head and also saw many things that other people didn’t see. Recently. i was send to a ‘crrazy house’ and my go again. I’m not as shy but all the thing i struggled with have gotten worse. I know people are getting fed up with me and have really started to plan my suicide lately. But hey who cares? Right? My dad is dead now and I’m forced to live with my mom who dosent realize she is just like my dad. She said “who would ever love a girl in your state and covered in scarrs?” Yep. Gotta love her, right? I’m so fed up, slowly giving up, but trying for the few friends i have and also my music. But I’m not sure how ling it’ll last or how long ill be here. This is my goodbye for the future so……goodbye.
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I’m sorry if I can’t be of any help to you.
I don’t know if you really want any feedback or are just ranting but I’ll still tell you that I am jealous of you.
Honestly I feel jealousy. Despite what you may feel, you have the courage and dedication to actually make a plan for the ultimate sacrifice. Something I have not yet figured out.
But let me just say, It’s a decision that cannot be undone. You should never do it out of impulse no matter how it feels. Friends have opinions and if they really are your friends…they would be pretty upset. Just think about them and think about me, the one who can actually look up to you, for better or worse.
Your mother, she thinks love is just a perverted feeling you get around someone attractive. Love is more than just something in your brain, it’s a legitimate connection that fewer people seem to understand anymore.
Sorry if my rambling is annoying. But I actually really liked your post.
If you have anything to say you can always say it to me.
Even if you just want to say I wasn’t helpful and I should shut up. 🙂
Thanks. You were helpful and i posted it to get that heavyweight off my shoulders. But thatks annd you were a little helpful