Lately, i don’t know how to deal with my life, i’ve been having so many suicidal thoughts. I can’t handle it anymore, i feel like i have no one to talk to, and the people i could talk to probably wouldn’t care. No one really knows the true side of me or how i really feel. I know the consequences if i do commit suicide, i would miss my family and my nephew he wouldn’t understand, all he would know is that he would never be able to see his aunty again, i just couldn’t hurt him like that, he looks up to me.. I don’t know how long i would be able to keep being this strong, i don’t really have anyone to talk to, i guess all i can do it listen to music, that’s what is keeping me here. Maybe i should just end it all, right here, right now at least all the pain will be gone away…
2 comments
I feel the exact same way if I killed myself my sisters and my dad would be sad. But I think I’ll kill myself if things get too bad to the point where I can’t take it anymore. No one understands me and I act like I’m a happy person but really I’m so depressed and in so much pain. I try to not show people that I’m in pain because they wouldn’t understand…
I feel all alone too I don’t know anyone who feels the way I do so I try to hide my feelings 🙁
I guess life is pain. I also think of that often. Of people whom I would leave behind. I mean it’s me I want to end and don’t want to cause that much troubles for anyone. My decision was that I’m going to live not for myself because it doesn’t work. I screw up everything I do and it makes me anxious. But for others. Maybe it’s best for them. Maybe someday you can help…or mess up even more. And you are stronger than you realize. You haven’t given upso don’t give up now either