relapse

…it’s been a while…after a good 4 months of no reply from my girlfriend I’ve given up. I’m done with her bullshit. I promised her not to hurt myself. it’s been a great 7 months darling but now it’s over. I mean nothing to anyone, and that’s good. because if I meant a thing to just one person, I’d have to keep promises. but now I don’t have to anymore. Im so done keeping people happy, lying about being “fine just tired”…Im just sick of it all. I hate how everyone thinks it’s perfectly fine to go through my sketchbook without asking and it’s not. this rant is so off topic. I can’t think straight though. I never can, my minds’ a mess. if only I had the time to tidy it up. what the fuck am I even saying anymore. to wrap up all this complete bullshit, I broke up with her. she cares more about two people on some dumb chat site than me. for the FOUR FUCKING MONTHS I waited for her to reply she’s been chatting with them. not even caring to contact me. I’m done.