rottdkorpse

she’s gone the most beautiful girl ever been with over a stupid argument it’s just the latest in a series of women in my life including a wife that are gone and they couldn’t run fast enough because I always do something stupid to f*** everything up a she was 20 years younger and it was probably dOomed from the beginning anyway. I hate my life I hate riding the bus to work alone everyday at night I hate coming home alone on the bus in the morning after work I hate coming to my tiny apartment alone and then if I’m lucky I sleep but then I wake up disappointed that I didn’t die while I was sleeping and realize that I have to face another awful evil rotten treacherous miserable unhappy f****** horrible horrid stinking rotten day. loneliness kills and I can tell you that lack of intimacy couple with loneliness is a shorter route to death to be alone in this world that is already so f***** up is so completely f***** up on its own that there are hardly any words to describe it the pain is indescribable the misery is indescribable every rotten f****** miserable day is indescribable the pain is crushing an all consuming and terroristic it washes over you in waves of fear that only get worse as time wears on realizing that you’re going to die alone in that nobody will give a f*** anyways oh god just f****** strike me dead now I swear to God I wish I was f****** dead