Taking my own life sounds terrible to other people right now but to me it sounds really good right now. I keep hearing about how this little 12 year old girl committed suicide because she was bullied so much it pushed her to that point. You don’t understand how much that made me break down inside and cry. Today is the day after the 12 year anniversary of the 9/11 attack. I lost my uncle in that terrible attack. And people expect me to get over him? He was a hero. He saved so many people, On his way up the stairs again to save more people the building collapsed and he was crushed in the debris. They couldn’t find his body for days. My cousin mike was in one of the planes that was taken over and crashed in the World Trade Center. You guys don’t know how much I have been through and you expect me to be happy. I lost so many people in my life that were so close to me. ! My only question I have is Why Me? Why did all of this terrible shit happen to me! Missing the people who passed away in my family. If they were here right now I would be the happiest person alive right now.
Things people don’t know about me and will NEVER know about me. I just want my life to get better….. I wish they were back…….
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These things didn’t happen to you, they happened to them. What happened to your uncle happened because he made an unimaginably brave decision to help other people rather than to help himself. Not many people even know someone who’s made a decision like that. If you want your life to get better, honor their memory. It won’t stop the pain, but it will give the pain meaning.
People don’t need to know all about you, and unfortunately, they probably never will. Language is too limited. But people can accept and understand you and your journey, and that acceptance can help us accept ourselves.
I’m sorry for your multiple losses. Trauma takes time to recover from, but I believe those on the other side are not ever truly lost to us. They may be nearer to us than we think.
Tonight I was convicted that I needed to be open to help, from God, or from those who might be pulling for me on the other side.
I think it is wonderful that you have such a heroic example close to you. Know that you may have access to that same courage and perseverance within you. No one nedds to know that you’re asking unc for help.
You’ve suffered much but may have one heck of a special mission in your life map. You’re worthy.
You live on for those whom you love dearest. Do not let their passings be in vain. They will, undoubtedly, watch over you until time itself ends.
It’s not just about you; it’s about them as well.
** THROWS THE BULLSHIT FLAG….
Poster claimed: “On his way up the stairs again to save more people the building collapsed and he was crushed in the debris”
However, first responders never went “part” of the way up, then out, then back in. They went ALL the way up and never got out or they went part of the way and were ordered out.
I find it SICK that someone is using this forum to spew bullshit… seeking attention while this place is designed to help those with REAL problems.
I don’t believe she said whether he was a first-responder. I also don’t think there was enough information to extrapolate from. I think this is a case where I’d prefer not to assume someone’s making things up.
I guess my question is..
Why can’t you get over these family members that died 12 years ago? I just want to know your personal reasons and why you feel that you can’t get over their death?
Keep in mind that you were only about 1 year old when this took place. You were not old enough to remember fondly with respect the memories of those who were lost. What compels you to hold onto something you had no involvement with in the first place? It’s not like 9/11 has made it hard for you to survive economically like countless others, like myself. Perhaps your parents can not let go of what happened because they have had years to let the fact settle into their minds and lives.. But you could only learn and know about what happened in the history books.
So like I said..
Why are you holding on to what happened 12 years ago when you were just a baby?
Wow. What a conclusion, uselessme. lol
@RT:
Dude… lol, that’s a damn good question! I had not realized until you mentioned it. That revelation frames this post in an entirely different light.
The bullshit gauntlet has been thrown.
Well….. I don’t think anybody would lie about having family members in the buildings…..but then again you never know….. I just think its her way of showing respect to them although I agree with RT30 ….
I also think you need to remember there were 3000+ people who were murdered that day….and it destroyed many families across the USA….so it devastated many families across the USA not just yours….
BTW don’t feel like anybody is trying to attack you here they are just giving honest opinions please don’t be offended.
Sorry if I disrupted anyone’s fantasies with my spoilers! :p
Kids these days!! lol lets just round them all up and give them a BIG squeeeeze!! Hehe
@RT30 lol well you haven’t heard the explanation yet so you’d have to wait and see
Can’t we just round them up and out them all on a farm with puppies and stuff?
Apparently miracles are very possible! lol
Let’s be compassionate, folks. This was a traumatic time. I didn’t lose any family members myself, but I still found it horrifying. Also, she didn’t say that ‘she’ is 12. She’s probably closer to 16-19, if she’s a teenager and can remember when this happened.
OP – I’m sorry that this happened, but you can still be YOU, no matter who you’ve lost. They would want you to carry on and do your best to be a good person. You can be a hero, too. It doesn’t have to be on a life-and-death scale, but there are many little things you could do for people. Keep yourself together, you’ll be ok.
I will pray for your recovery in this matter!!!! fear not the lord will rescue you if you ask him! 🙂
@persephone- I like you persephone, you have a good heart…..BUT..
If you read her old posts it says she is 13. I would guess she isn’t even exactly 13 either. Possibly “12 and a half” but def not 18.
Sorry!
If you think I’m being mean, well…. LOL
She’s 13. Her other posts contain statements where she says shes 13. No matter what Persephone, this is one terrorist attack of numerous in the world. I am sad that all that happened that day. Sadly people are dying everywhere and making this event the spolight as if its the worst thing ever commited annoys me. If we’re gonna take a moment of silence for 9/11 2001 lets take moments of silence every day for terrorist attacks that took lives in other countries. So much happens every day so much has happened every day so many years ago. In time everything is forgotten….people don’t know what happened on what day 800 years ago. Centuries from now they wont rembet this either and American may just be a country that existed in the past. For the record william wallace defeated the english at sterling bridge in 1227 on september 11.