hey guys i’m new here and i figured i would share my story. actually im surprised that i even have the will and energy to write this. so anyway im a 26 yr old gay woman who lives with her equally imbalanced mother. i have never accomplished anything in my life and clearly thats my own fault. i did terrible in school (never even went half the time) i have no direction or goals and i have never been able to keep a long term job (this is even before i became suicidal) about 8 months ago my long term girlfriend and i broke up and immediately she had sex with my male “friend”. this girl was either a borderline or a sociopath so the relationship itself was very damaging. i stayed for so long because i hated myself. over the last couple of years i lost whatever good looks i had to an amphetamine addiction. i am over that now but the damage has been done. oh yeah im also a fucking addict so add that to the list. none of my “friends” will talk to me anymore because im that much of a loser. if it weren’t for my family i would have ended it long ago. i can’t get along with anybody it seems. in fact the whole human race sickens me. life is a joke… thats all i have to say right now i guess.
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If it weren’t for my family, I would have ended it a long time ago too. I see myself as a rusty old wagon with 3 wheels. My parents keep trying to paint it and fix it, replacing the missing wheel, but the bottom line is, no matter what their intentions are, junk is still junk. You can fix garbage and that’s what I am. But still, they would be devastated if my life were to be cut short, don’t ask me why.
You suffered through a hurtful relationship/break up, but you can still meet someone who is better for you. You’re only 26 and there’s lots of time. I realize that there are probably many things that you’re depressed over tho. I really wish you the best and hope that things turn around for you.
thank you. any encouragement helps a little. unfortunately those are only the beginning of a long list of issues. i’m gonna try to hang on as long as i can. i know what you mean with family, i feel so guilty about wanting to do this all while they are trying their best to help. i hope everything is well with you.