Please help me, I need to off my self asap, I have tried to keep trucking for a while now and I just cant do it. For the sake of my roommates, friends, and parents I would like advice as how to make it look like an accident. I cant fucking keep on doing this. On a purely environmental stance I am a huge suck  of resources. Go green help me kill myself in a way that will hurt none (Id obviously prefer a low pain death but its more important that my death seem accidental and doesn’t hurt the people i care about, so accidental is more important than the painfulness of the exit ) please and thank you
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You do realize that whether the death is accidental or suicide ….people will hurt period….there is no way you can die that will not hurt people…that’s just a repercussion of loss….any loss really….anytime you lose something that you care about even a little it hurts…. So don’t fool yourself into thinking that if you made your death look accidental it won’t hurt anybody….If I slap you in the face does the pain your face feels depend on if I did it on accident or on purpose? nope….it stings equally regardless of my intent….
Your death regardless of the circumstances will cause pain…and will hurt the people you care about…that is the plight of the suicide….no matter how detailed the note, how considerate you were in your suicide planning, no matter what….you will hurt somebody that cares about you….we don’t intend to do it….it is not our purpose….it is not something we want….but it is an unintended effect of our death….
You need to accept that. Besides….there is really no way to make it look accidental without the assistance of another person and you’d have more chance of winning the lottery than to find some stranger willing to risk their freedom for a guy they don’t know….I’m quite sure nobody that knows you will help you and they are actually more likely to try and “help” you by getting the authorities involved.
Well said Painnlife. That is the unfortunate thing about suicide. We wish that our loved ones would be happy for us and would realize that we could not continue to endure the pain of the life that we are living, but they will never see it that way. Even if it was an accident, they will consider it just as big a loss, they will be devastated, because no matter what, all that they will see is a life cut short.
The thing is, and I know this for a fact, is that your loved ones will NEVER get over it. Ever EVER. They won’t feel better after a while, they won’t forget, they won’t not miss you. You are sentencing them to a life of hell. Yeah, it’s easy to check out – harder to keep going. But it’s what you must do. This feeling will pass. It’s temporary. You could wake up tomorrow, next week, 3 months from now and everything can be different. You’ll say to yourself “what the HELL was I thinking”. Also a fact – most (I don’t remember the % exactly but it was in the 90’s) people that survive the attempt are glad that they did.
What you think, feel, who your are right now, you will not be down the road. You will be a different person. Reason differently. Look differently. Hang in there. The fact that you’re even concerned about your loved ones – that you HAVE loved ones, gives you a purpose.
@Juliemcc: ….That is utterly ridiculous and false to say that….people die…that’s a fact of life…to sit here and proclaim they will NEVER get over it is absurd….if not then explain how anybody is happy anywhere? because I assure you everybody has known somebody close that died…. by your logic anybody that ever died sentenced their family to “a life of hell”….Now of course it will effect some more and longer than others but to word it as if it can’t be overcome is ridiculous….people accept it and move on as with any other death…no things won’t be the same but another fact of life is that change is constant….nobody will die in the same world they were born in….
No it is not “easy” to check out…in fact it is harder to commit suicide than it is to live….you don’t actually have to do anything to live except eat….to die you actually have to make a sincere effort and find a method that you are comfortable utilizing and even still the survival instinct is a ***** to overcome….
I will agree with you in one aspect….the feeling will pass….it is temporary…as life is temporary….so when you die the feeling will pass….and to lie to people as if they really could wake up in a few months and everything could magically be okay is bullshit….if that was the case then explain to me why it hasn’t happened in the last 4 years for me then?….If I haven’t waited long enough then explain that to some of the other members here who have been suicidal and depressed for 15-20+ years…
Most people that survive an attempt either wasn’t sincere or they got rescued before they died….that hails in comparison the people who have succeeded an attempt…. Maybe a few people were happy they failed but I bet most weren’t
The fact that you have loved ones does not give you a purpose….you are not here for the purpose to be here for loved ones….that’s like having a car for the purpose of giving other people rides…..
@julie:
it seems you’ve missed the point: suicide is not about everyone else; it’s about the person who wants/needs to die… just like that’s what life’s about. All of the extended and peripheral impacts of that, while unfortunate, are beside the point.
Littletrex, PainNLife has already covered the point I was about to make, so I’ll add that if you do plan to off yourself, then the least you could do is to end it in a way that doesn’t leave a gruesome mess.
As PNL said it doesn’t matter how you die, it’ll hurt them the same. What I’d suggest is to wrap up all the loose ends first so your family doesn’t have to do more work on top of grieving over your loss.
Maybe have a conversation with each of them and state what you want before you go. For instance I emailed my sister a letter that said ‘in case I got into an accident’ and then informed her about who gets my belongings, about the passwords on my computer to delete accounts and so on.
We’re all going to die sooner or later. There’s at least one person in my life who I really love and she loves me also and I know my loss will destroy her when/if I’m gone. But my life and it’s issues are more serious and I can’t just live for her and continue to suffer-it makes no sense.
So just think it through and make sure you’ve taken care of whatever needs to be done before you go….of course without raising any suspicion or some do-gooder will probably have you institutionalized.