I am miserable. The business I have been operating 70 hour work weeks for 2 years without profit, putting in my dues, will close if I can’t land an investment today. I am jealous of the girls that work at the gas station. They dont deal w taxes, child support, the agricultural board. They go to work then go home. I owe everybody money. I have a warrant for my arrest I cant afford the $50 to close out.
My kids are 5 & 9. The only thing keeping me “here” is the thought of them motherless. Would they bounce back like kids do? Would my mom raise them? Would I become what theyre young minds create from memories and longing? It seems better than what I am. I’m overwhelmed and terrified. One quick bang. If i Don’t think twice I will never feel scared again.
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I found your story interesting and insightful. Although I don’t know how to fix the problems. I hope you find the best outcome, whatever it may be.
Leave something for your kids before you check out, please. It’s ok you want to kill yourself, but try to leave them something of a future, otherwise it would be much harder to go out in peace. Think it as the last effort.
I feel the same way… I have a 4 and a 1 1/2 year old.