I know that compared to many my life is great and enviable, but I feel anything but that. I didn’t suffer from any traumatic event, and I don’t know I am making all these up in my head, but I feel like I am defeated. People have broken my heart a little by little, and now I feel that I have a black hole instead of a heart. I feel lonely even while being with my friends, that is if they are even my friends. I don’t belong anywhere. I have been there for everyone, but no one is there for me. All my friends have left me now that their lives have gotten better or they have found someone else. Was I just there to be used? I used to have so many people that I thought cared about me, and now I feel that I have none…I don’t anyone even would notice that I have disappeared, gone forever. and that is why I want to disappear. What’s the point to exist if there is nobody who cares whether you exist or not?
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What is the point in non-existence when there is nobody cares about your absence?
Someone always cares. It could be somebody that you know or it could be somebody that is a complete stranger. All you have to do is pray that God send you someone. I care about you and I dont even know you but thats what people with hearts do. I feel the same way. I have always been there for my friends and have helped them through anything but if I need them to be there for me it isnt going to happen. When I think about stuff like this I pray and it makes me feel better about myself because really the only people that should really matter is God and what he thinks about you. But dont think nobody cares someone always cares.
Whether anyone cares is irrelevant. Caring doesn’t pay rent or keep you from starving. And if you spend your energy begging your imaginary friend to magically make things happen for you, as if that is somehow a valid solution, then you will only find disappointment and lots of wasted time.
Your existence does not occur expressly for the purpose of others’ convenience and approval.
Your existence is yours to use, for whatever purpose you so choose, whether anyone else likes it or agrees or approves, or not.
You must learn to take control of yourself, or you will continue to be used by those who have the ability to impose their will upon you.
The “point to exist,” is that you are already existing. You are, now, and you will not be again… and no matter what you do, your life will end, someday, whether sooner or later, whether you want it or not. So, since you already have this existence, cannot stop it from ending, and cannot replenish the time that slips away unused… you should focus on using your time and energy to manifest events that you want to experience, because it is almost certain that you will not get what you want out of life, if you do not make it happen yourself.
Whatever it is you want to change, you have to put effort into it, in order to have any chance of changing it. If you do nothing, everything you dislike will remain as it is.
The problem isn’t about whether anyone else cares that you exist; the problem is that YOU don’t. And if you aren’t really interested in existing, how can you then motivate yourself to pursue something you don’t really want?
The only good way, is to decide you want something, and to go after it with everything you’ve got, while you’ve got a life to spend on living for something that matters to You… even if everyone else thinks that’s stupid or wrong, even if no one else gives a shit that you exist.
Your life isn’t about anyone else but You. Decide to go live it, while you still can.
But it’s also perfectly understandable that you’ll need some recovery time to gather yourself from such a difficult and damaging string of defeats. But you need to stop playing other people’s games, whose rules are built to control and exploit you, not to allow you to win. Learn to value investment in yourself. Seek the truth. Learn to have a justifiable and defensible opinion. Learn to see what’s wrong, as early and far away as possible, in order to maximize your chance to mitigate problems, or even avoid them entirely.