im sorry i love you mom.

When i put the knife towards my skin, i rip out the pain going around me, i bandage myself up and cry myself to sleep. My mom see’s my arm and lies with me crying in my bed woundering why i did this to myself, When i wake up she asked me darling why did you do this, then my eyes fill up with sorry and hurtful tears not wanting to tell her why i did this, im sorry i love you mom but this is who i am, this is what i do and wanting to change that just makes it harder anyway, when i see your big brown eyes fill with tears and your legs start shaking because you dont no what to do well let me just tell you i love you, and i am who i am let me know you love me and one day hopefully ill revive my body again.