i’ve been going to school (College) for 7 years now, i’ve taken up 3 different courses namely Bs Medical technology, Bs Respiratory therapy and Emergency medical service. the reason why im suicidal is because i hate school and i hate my poor decision making and oh im not a kid anymore im 23.
i’ve always end up dropping all my subjects when im in my 3rd year, i don’t know why but there is always this bad situations that keeps on happening and causing me to lose my interest in continuing my studies or maybe because im too lazy to continue doing it. i dont know.. i really don’t know or maybe im just unlucky.
how bout ye? whats yer story?
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Ok so, I a college student too, I am repeating first year because I lost every interest in studying and this is due to all of that shit I’m going through.. I’m in a relationship with a guy who is completely different than anyone, sometimes he is gentle and caring and other times cruel and mean… I don’t know what to do anymore, we’ve been together a year now, and two months ago I discovered that he is cheating on me, but I’ve forggiven him because I can’t live without him.. We live in two different cities, and also we can’t have sex, so he choose to sleep with other girls.. He says he loves me, and I know he does but I’m scared, lost, broken and suck.
i really loved school.it is too bad i cut out because of severe acne scars.i have oily skin.you know as a doctor.anyways i said that comment because you look like a 14 year old kid.i wish i was like you going to medical school?come on dude give me a break.you really are lucky.you have to read a lot though but it is only for few years.so don’t give up now.you come a long way.
I’m 18 years old
@joinel i’ve given it all up. im not up for it anymore.. i’ll be dead soon because the police are on a haunt for me and i don’t think i will end up being jailed. its a shoot to kill order..
Everything sucks for me ryt now.
@Unknown 2 i have a girlfriend, we live far from each other and we constantly have sex when we meet but its not all about the sex,
i wanted to break up with her because i dont love her even if i always get laid, wanna know why? because i think she just likes having sex with me.ahah. i can’t be with someone i don’t love..
its not right that he’s hitting on other girls thats just not plain right.. i don’t think he loves you, he’s just waiting for you to have sex with him then pooop he’s gone. break up with him i dont think he loves you…. there’s a lot of good and faithful guys out there..
@Joinel you’re in the same situation with my brother but he’s handling it very well, i guess. and he’s really doing a great job in college. all subjects A+.. he’s taking up accountancy.
i feel sorry for my brother having to suffer from those acne problems, but he’s really very determined to graduate.. i always wish him all the luck and hapiness in this world.. i don’t want him ending up like me..
i wish him the best for your brother man.and after he graduate he really need someone who can be with him.so support him as much as you can.i am sorry about the police thing.is the crime that hard.shoot and kill.comeon you can’t be a serial killer, you are to young for that.
If he was truly committed and loved you he wouldn’t be sleeping with other girls.
See, how can you have love without commitment? Just because you guys have been together for a year does not mean you have a relationship. What you do have here is a one sided relationship. Sorry hun but I think you deserve something better than him!
Sorry forgot to mention my reply is to Unknown2
Hey guys, thanks for yur reply, but I’m sure you completely understd my poinr. I need to clarify one thing ok? We have been through so much shit, but we’ve stuck on for each other. He is ill, but I still love him though, he is cruel to me but I rather suffer with him than suffer without him.. I told him that J was ready to live with all of his crap, hear things and pretend I didn’t, see, feel, imagine, but remain silent.. But each time he does something I end up by knowing.. It hurts, I have given him my soul, my thoughts, my life, but I guess my body is still mine.
@unkown 2 he just wants to have sex with you and you’re the last one on his list.. Hank Moody’s ryt its a one sided love and i think your bf’s not ill because he got so much time hitting on other girls. phew! You need to be with him personally for you to get to know him better..
@Joinel Yup, i’ve been doing everything i can to help him out, i’ve been driving him to school. i feel very proud of him to be doing good in school with him having a problem with acne. he has this long term goal, he wants to be rich and when his rich he can solve all his problems even his acne problems 🙂 he’s a pretty smart kid..
@Unknown 2 is he your first love?
I’ve been with others but I’ve never felt this way, never done things I do for him, I’ve never laughed from my heart until he came.. I am sure that he doesnt want me just for sex, because if he did, he would have broken up wit me the minute he knew that he cant have all of me, but he didnt.. He keeps on saying that his schizophrenia is too severe, and he is whether the suicidal one or the euphoric one, and he puts me to choose.. It’s hard because I want him only mine.. He says he will be fooling girls around just until the time when I am completely his… Everything is my fault.. So we had this deal about drinking, he promised me he’ll never do that until he asks me, last night he did, and I couldn’t say no to him.. Now, it is early morning in the country where I’m from, I opened my eyes, had the thought about what he is going to be doing today, and just couldnt fall asleep afterwards.. He will be spendin time, drinking, or getting drunk, and most important, playing around with some lesbian bitches. And all I could do is to tell him not to give me any informations about tonight but he said he cant keep his mouth shut.. I feel like shit, and all I can do is feeling this way.. My first class of this semestre is starting on the afternoon, I don’t know how to think anymore. I’m a failure.
know your priorities, do you want to graduate or do you want to keep on doing what your doing right now?. lovelife can wait, your still young so i think you should focus first in going to school. time flies so fast you’ll find yourself regretting every bad decision you make.. don’t worry about him. he can take care of himself, the best you can do now is focus on your study.. keep yourself busy..
Thank you for the advice, I hope I can make it.. So this afternoon, everything was ok, we talked on phone, but then he left for school and I did too. Though I was busy, but I couldnt get him out of my mind.