Whenever someone asks me if i’m ok i lie. I fake smile and ask why. They said i was acting different yesterday. I was tired i say. And as i walk away i feel guilt washing over me but i repeat in my head they shall never know, ever.
I believe almost everyone can relate to this. It’s just how it is. Someone asks you “How are you?” or “Are you okay?” and you reply “I’m fine”. They ask “Are you sure?” and you smile or perhaps laugh it off and reply “yes” even if you’re far from it. It’s just the way it is.
Perhaps it’s how we are taught in the sense that when we teach children basic social skills by having conversations them which involve “How are you?”, we expect them to say “Good!” because that’s the “right” answer – it’s socially correct and they’ll be rewarded for it. Admitting you’re feeling down or not “tip top fantastic” can leave the other party feeling down, so perhaps that’s why we don’t always admit it – both because we genuinely don’t want them to feel upset and because we’d rather leave the opportunity open for a more enjoyable conversation.
However sometimes we don’t express what we are truly feeling because we aren’t ready for the other party to show concern or provide any decent sort of help. And on the other hand, sometimes we don’t express how we truly feel because we don’t think it matters and nothing can be done.
I think you’ll find a day when you’re willing to take the chance with the truth. Just make sure you take it, or else you’ll be stuck doing this for an even longer time.
Hope what I wrote isn’t 100% idiotic, because I’m about to pass out from tiredness.
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I believe almost everyone can relate to this. It’s just how it is. Someone asks you “How are you?” or “Are you okay?” and you reply “I’m fine”. They ask “Are you sure?” and you smile or perhaps laugh it off and reply “yes” even if you’re far from it. It’s just the way it is.
Perhaps it’s how we are taught in the sense that when we teach children basic social skills by having conversations them which involve “How are you?”, we expect them to say “Good!” because that’s the “right” answer – it’s socially correct and they’ll be rewarded for it. Admitting you’re feeling down or not “tip top fantastic” can leave the other party feeling down, so perhaps that’s why we don’t always admit it – both because we genuinely don’t want them to feel upset and because we’d rather leave the opportunity open for a more enjoyable conversation.
However sometimes we don’t express what we are truly feeling because we aren’t ready for the other party to show concern or provide any decent sort of help. And on the other hand, sometimes we don’t express how we truly feel because we don’t think it matters and nothing can be done.
I think you’ll find a day when you’re willing to take the chance with the truth. Just make sure you take it, or else you’ll be stuck doing this for an even longer time.
Hope what I wrote isn’t 100% idiotic, because I’m about to pass out from tiredness.