Last year when I was 13 I thought people actually cared about me but then I realized that even my family doesn’t care about me.my sister who is 26 told me if I keep on cutting myself that I would get put in a mental institution and said I don’t have an excuse to be depressed. She said I’m ungrateful, I’m weak and I need to grow up. No one actually cares, people say they do but in the end they leave you when you need them the most. My sister has given up on trying to help me, she said that I have to change or I’ll get put in a mental institution. She said I’m selfish for even thinking of killing myself and if I kill myself I’ll go to hell. She made me scared to even try to commit suicide, she told me what might happen if you fail to kill yourself. Now I can’t even try to kill myself. If I fail I get put in a mental  institution or I end up mentally retarded(or in intense pain) and if I do succeed I might go to hell. I can’t kill myself and I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.
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Ahannah123, I’m so sorry your sister reacted the way she did – that certainly was not the proper response, but trust me when I say the reason she responded to your cutting the way she did is because she cares – deeply. She is just as scared as you are, freaked out and very hurt that you would even consider hurting yourself.
I know this because I did the same thing when my younger brother-in-law (who is like my blood brother) attempted suicide. I was so hurt and angry by his actions I reacted very poorly. I’ve since learned from my mistake and now know this is not the right way to express your emotions, but please know it’s because she cares.
I bet your parents feel overwhelmed and are unsure what to do as well. It’s very scary when someone you love so much wants to hurt themselves or take their life.
Have you spoken to someone about how you are feeling?
It will be ok ahannah123 i am here if u need me
@Lets talk
“Have you spoken to someone about how you are feeling?”
I told my 2 sisters, a friend and my dad about how I feel but when I talk to them about this I feel like they don’t understand. For example I told my friend that I wanted to kill myself and she said suicide is bad and I should talk to someone about it. I also told a counselor at school and she pretty much said the same thing.
What is ur email ahannah id like to talk to u if u would like
hannah.clarke70@yahoo.com
Sometimes people are just oblivious. It is ridiculous that your counselor would say that to you – you’re only 14! How are you supposed to get the help you need?! That’s why you went to her!
Approach your Dad or counselor again, and this time say, “I need your help to help me get the help I need to feel better. I don’t want to feel the way I do, but I need to see someone to help me get through this, otherwise I might not make it”.
Your Dad is probably scared and doesn’t know what to do. They will help you if you lay it out clearly like that.
I emailed u sweety.
@marianna
thank you I got the message 🙂