the by when evre i feel down/whant to reflechion on my life s far

iv done it agen iv fallen in love why am i so esey im finding nower days that im protending to be happy cos iv given in iv got my life now so i should be happy right wrong i still think of it to this day i have the razor i think one day ill smile and trow it away or one day ill smile shy away some were smoke some weed and take a pill and slip away… nice isunt it the thort but if like me you have died once youill know its not pece full the first 5 secions yes but then… it gets so god dam cold and then black i asume for me it was “WFT” punch closit doctor i wish the ied had got me im fed up of runing i recon that it should of killed me and death cam to me to take me but befor he/she could i felt the plate and deacatavatid it but its wered at that moment i could of gone fuck this and put my head on the dam thing i thort of it but then agen my men behind me and and shock that would of been to see you leder stop and qwite meeningly put his head on an ied would of fuckt em up oh well thats me done for a month or two speek soon love you all stay storng keep your head down and run for cover <3 xxxxxxxxxxxxxx