Why am I even here? Why did I have to be born? I’ve always want to just die. I’m just spending my 15th birthday crying to myself in my room, depressed, and contemplating Suicide once more out of the five-thousand times. I have the tools to do so but one problem with myself is I’m just a ***** and I just can’t do it. So why am I even here.
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Everyone has a purpose in life I’m an atheist and I still think thats true
Aww. Happy birthday, kiddo. I’m sorry your day has been like this. Hey, I’ve spent my last few birthdays alone, if that’s any consolation. I took myself out to get cheesecake, that’s what I did.
You should try to hang in there. You’ll find more to appreciate in life in a few years, trust me. Being of legal age comes with many boons, you don’t want to miss out on that.
Is there any reason in particular why you are feeling so depressed?
I have been home because of major headaches caused by god knows what and my medical condition, my stepdad is no alcoholic but he has been furious that I stay home and rest I feel as though my grades are in the dumps and I have been told I’ll never be compared to my brother who has been successful through School and in college now being in spectrum and honors society but I’ve just had enough of how much is expected of me and I am very shy now and so many of the people that would be friends are girls and since I’m such a wussy I’d never talk to them so night after night I sit alone crying to myself in my room. So that just about sums up my life for the past 5 years ever since I moved.
I know how you feel; I have health problems myself and am unable to perform to the best of my abilities. However, people never accept this and think I’m just lazy.
I also feel like I’ll compare to my brother – he’s always been the golden boy, very chill personality, never gets into trouble with anyone, does what is expected of him. I, on the other hand, dislike following orders and I never live up to people’s expectations because I follow my own path. Bleh. It has gotten me in a lot of trouble through the years.
I don’t have any friends in real life right now so I feel you. Somehow I’m surviving though…
What would you like to see change in your life?
*I feel like I’ll never compare
How long it will have to last. I just don’t feel like I want to or even can do anything I don’t even want to eat anymore I just want to fade away like I never existed.
I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore and it’s like the only person that did care at one point was my own mother but it feels that even her care has drifted away for years
My parents never cared too much about me either. It’s not the end of the world. As long as you can like yourself, you’ll be fine. You might still be suicidal, but it won’t be as bad.
Thank you is all I can say I feel… Confident time o get some sleep and go to school…
Go ahead and ask her if she does, a mothers love never fades. At Least you have a good mother. My mother cheated on my father and took everything including me in greed. The Reason why you’re holding back suicide is because you feel like there’s something there left in your life, go ahead and find out what that is.
OK. If you have anything else to talk about, don’t hesitant to return here. All the best! Joyeux anniversaire, again. ^^
*hesitate