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Lately i have been feeling worse then ever before and i never thought it was possible. For one me and my mum have been arguing a lot more than usual as well as her always telling me to put more effort into what i do when i’m trying my hardest.

Second the feeling i get when i go to town of people judging me, i use to at least be able to wear shorts and not feel like i was being judged and now it’s every thing from what i wear and how i act.

And thirdly it’s my best guy friend i like him but he’s one of those people that think cutting is gross and is only done for attention. I want to be able to talk to him but knowing that if i did i might lose a friend and my crush i just can’t do it.

And lastly when i with my friends my fake smiles have been getting less convincing. I can’t deal with all the worried looks they give me, i know they care but i just can’t handle being watched 24/7