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I fucking hate my life so much. After I graduated high school I haven’t figured out what I want to do yet…. everything is so boring to me , whats the point of working,working,working,then dying? my high school years were a mess, everyone picked on me, even the teachers… one of them asked if I was retarded. I fell in love with my best friend and she only saw me as a friend and nothing more… I stopped talking to her and my whole body felt pain for one year straight, my heart was burning non stop. I got a good paying job but i managed to quit after the first day because how fucking stupid i am. i’m wasting air and resources that i don’t deserve. everything i do i fucking fail, i never succeed and always fail. yeah i got people that care about me but so what? there is no life after death.. if i just killed my self i wouldn’t feel any more pain and suffering. my house is a fucking nightmare, i’m trapped and no one can help me because i’m fucking stupid and ignorant. what am i gonna do for the rest of my life? sit home and jerk off? ive lost the motivation to do anything