death would be his escape from maddness

my world is crumbleing before me I just want it to end. there is a girl one who i would do anything for and she hates me. my performance in school is so low that my parents threaten me. every one i have ever loved has eventullay left or began to hate me. the only reasonable thing i can think of is suicide i always say to myself if someone gave me a gun the first thing i would do is shoot myself in the head . no one would ever care.