Just today I am 100% sure I’m done with life. I gave it a chance to talk to people and make friends at my highschool. But no, I literally get pushed away from any group. Everybody doesn’t hate me, they just don’t care.
So here am I coming to the conclusion of detergent suicide.
I’ve been told a million times no one cares. I don’t need sympathy or whatever. Guess I just feel like getting this out of me.
I have been giving suicide a thought for too long now. Its just killing me that when I was in the hospital no one even cared to visit or let alone write to me. Never been to any sweet 16 parties even when all my “friends” go without telling me. Im not even anti social ffs. I actually try to talk and do SO MANY nice things. But fuck it, when I’m gone no one would care except my parents and my uncle. Nothing more than a living waste of money and feel bad for that.
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I will ask you this: why is their acceptance necessary for your survival?
I am not some middle aged well meaning counselor. I’m actually about your age. I don’t dispute your right to commit suicide. But don’t you fucking dare let someone else be your reason. When I go, as I’m sure I one day will, it will be a conscious decision of my own, rather than a reaction to the decisions of others.
You are loved an accepted, brother. If you still must make this week your last, don’t you dare think you went out alone and unloved.
That’s exactly how I fucking feel at my high school, it’s almost as if am a fucking alien or something, I really want to kill myself too. But this is my suggestion, DO NOT USE DETERGENT, trust me it will be very painful, but if you really want to kill yourself make sure that you do some research about whatever you will be using.
It will come in handy, am trying to come up with some ways as well, and am personally thinking that I will kill myself by using helium or ******** gas to end this life that’s full of fucking lies.
My whole perspective on this is that it’s your choice and if possible hopefully you will be alright sooner or later in life or that you have a righteous peaceful death where your weary mind can be at rest.
But at the same time, yes your parents and your uncle will be very sad if you were to take your life and even my parents and family would be very sad. So for me, at the same time I want to kill myself but I don’t want to make my parents and family very sad.
I don’t know, but if your still alive and you see this message, just reply and we can talk more about this because your not the only one who is alone in these situations.
You’re only in high school. You are still young. Please, for the love of God, it would be stupid to do it now. Wait until you’re 25. 😛
Nowadays age doesn’t matter, am 17 and there are younger people than me who take their own lives either because of a situation that they would be in. Age also wouldn’t matter again too, because if your parents, friends and family members love you now, how will age change that love that they have for you.
So it’s either you do it now or later or none at all, because age won’t change love.
How long do you have left of school? I’m guessing two years more and then you can move on to university or work or whatever.
So why not wait? There’s not long left and you could probably turn things around. New places, new people.
You have family that will always be there for you, you could always tell them about how you’re doing at school.
Im 16 turning 17 in a couple of months. A junior in our useless high school, and a depressing genius.
I seriously just dont care anymore. Already got everything figured and have been searching for an easy way to die (Since I have no access to a gun anymore ever since I moved).
My life is a pain. I really cant take it anymore.
What do you want? Friends, things, sex?
If you didn’t care, you wouldn’t be replying to the comments here. Think about it. What do you actually want if you had the chance to get it?
i feel the same way ;-; im a freshman (lame i know) but everyone at the school is mean u-u
im sticking around so i can make everyone elses life a living hell since they tell me daily they dont want me around !!
i hope you find peace. no matter what route you take, bro !
Dont care? Fuck dude, I’ve been told to go kill myself by so many people since I was 11. Wanna fuckin join em? Then go ahead.
Im already fed up. As said above I do a lot of nice things and I swear on Friday i’ll just give away my stuff secretly. Im a nice guy, but as they say.. We all finish last.
Guess not much of a finish if I stop right in the middle of my life huh?
Well no one gives me any chance to talk to them or hang out. I stand out in the cold just going home everyday doing nothing after that. Its the same everyday.
Hell what do you even want? Why the fuck do you even care?
Im already gone on Friday.
I just wanted to at least say something of what happen in my wasted life.
I hope for your sake, you know that suicide is not a sickness, nor disease, nor mentality, but an offer. When you commit suicide you accept that offer an offer that can not be withdrawn once you depart.
An “offer”?
That makes no sense, in fact, that’s the exact opposite of what suicide is. No one can “offer” you suicide. Suicide is an “act”, an act of self. When some one else kills you (perhaps even being offered before hand), it’s still homicide. If you want to make up your own rules to life, go right ahead, but I’m just stating what the law would consider.
Suicide is an act of self, carried out under the choice of one’s self, if one chooses to make the decision of ending their life. Simple. No need to think deep.
And by “act” I mean action, of course.
I have been (and continue to be) in that same boat. I’m 47, have dealt with this sort of crap all my life. You (I) are nice coz thats who we are. Other people are shit and most often take advantage of it. Yes it does have a wearing down effect, years and years of it take its’ toll.
Hell, I gave my wife all for 14+ years, even longer if you add the time I knew her before. WTF did I get? Someone many have and now tell me “she never loved you”. It was all a damn waste. A wife so cruel she wouldnt even visit me in the hospital on her own without another reason to drive there.
Im just waiting….. once my life reaches a point where I have noone, I am “outa here”. Sometimes nature just tells you “its the right thing to do”.
I give my life 3-5 years max, if even a fraction of that.
Im getting older, less chance of a job, family dying, what the fuck will I be left here for?