Sometimes it feels like no one cares. No one wants me here. I hope that’s not true sometimes, but I know it is. And I can’t handle it. What do I do? I want to cut, but if I do, my best friend will be mad. I think I’m going to but everything is exploding in my face, and I can’t stop my life from falling apart. What did I do to deserve this? Am I a mistake? Do I deserve to die?
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I know this probably doesn’t help much, but I know how you feel.
I know plenty of plenty think no one cares, but the thing is, everyone either tells me they don’t care, or they just turn against me! It’s impossible!
plenty of PEOPLE sorry, my computer hates grammar.
Thank you. It’s just hard when all my “friends” are making everything worse, and so is my family!
Hi, I know pretty much, Exactly how you feel. You don’t deserve to die. Whoever you are, I think you’re pretty important. I lived your life,(from what you typed, at least) and I can relate to everything, except I didn’t have a best friend. Now I have a lot of best friends and a boyfriend, and a great school, however home is a different story. Ignore my sidetracked mind, but the point is, everything turns around eventually. Wether it takes five months or five years,(it took that long) it is totally worth it to stay alive,besides, if there are people being mean to you, if you die, then they’ll pick on someone else. You don’t want someone, or your best friend, to feel your pain. That’s my logic.
Although I agree, I’ve waiting 3 years, and I’m just getting worse. I have my one friend. Everyone else hates me, and I don’t even want to deal. Plus, my friend goes to a different school than me, so they wouldn’t get to her. And from what’s happened before, if I committed suicide they’d claim that, “I was so shy, but I seemed so sweet, and I didn’t deserve to die this early.” But they don’t think that. I wish I had a boyfriend, but none of them will ever like me. But why would I deserve to be alive?
Consider this- if truly nobody cared, you would be surrounded by indifference. Negativity is painful but more often than not, it’s because of fear and a lack of understanding. I’ve always thought that if everyone knew what it was truly like to be suicidal, nobody would show anyone who was anything but love and support. Well….more people would, at least. I don’t have any answers for you, though, this is just a minor i’ve gained in my 10 or so years of personal experience with suicidal depression and ptsd (I’m 24 now). But…at least one other perrson and I cared enough to write all that so take that for what you will.
Thank you, it actually means a lot that so many people are replying. I’ve always felt like no one else knew what I feel like. And, I wish my old friends understood. I’m trying to find new ones!
Every one deserves to live, as I have said before, life is a miracle in all forms, no matter how bad it is. Also the boyfriend thing is more of me and someone else trying to stay strong together,
Life is beautiful. If you end yours, you just plucked a rose that has yet to bloom, and when it does it will be like all the other roses, maybe even better, if you pluck it, you cost a gardener joy, and the rose was just a thing that never should have been. Only you can make your life worth living, if you end it, it never was. (That sounded backwards didn’t it? I’m bad at advice…)