hate disappointing him,the sound of his voice rings in my head,try to put myself into his situation and know how he is feeling,its so hard when you love someone so much you just want everything to go right,you cant die cause you live for that person you love,knowing their alright means so much to you,try to please them but its never good enough,feel everyone hates me and no matter what i do i cannot make anyone happy im a failure in life nothing has ever gone right don’t want to go in detail cause its hurts so much thinking about it,he hurts me sometimes and i just suck it up cause i love him so much like no one has ever love anybody on this earth,you miss him so much its hurts,i live to keep him alive but i’m really a lifeless soul i’m in so much of pain i only think about death but still have him in the back of my mind and know what i’m doing is for him BUT I JUST GIVE UP MAYBE GOD WILL WANT ME IN HIS KINGDOM CAUSE HE KNOWS HOW MUCH I’M SUFFERING ON EARTH
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Heart break is so painful if you still have feelings for the person that has gone. You have given your whole life to someone and when that someone is gone you don’t know what to do with the life you have left. You sound like you have a big heart which can be a curse. I imagine your a good person and maybe time will help you. Take a step back from taking your life, just for a while. Try and see how good a person you are and how you have so much to give someone and through No ones fault you loved the wrong person. If you loved him this much you can love the right person even more.
BUT I JUST GIVE UP MAYBE GOD WILL WANT ME IN HIS KINGDOM CAUSE HE KNOWS HOW MUCH I’M SUFFERING ON EARTH
<————-I tried that, thinking those same words over and over just before I took enough Ambien to kill a few people, going face down in water, swallowing it.
God said "NO". And He made it clear I "got it wrong", and there is no doubt I should theoretically should be dead.
Why I was left here it still very much unclear to me. I suffer a lot emotionally, have health issues, losing insurance soon to even take care of that, but for some reason, I am supposed to be here.
I don't think God wants anyone to do it.
Suffering has a reason, whatever it is. I don't claim to even have a clue why. But, God made it clear…. STAY.
He will take you when He is ready.
That does not sound like love to me.
what does it sound like then you dont know what is love then