42 and over it

Well here goes…

Another lonely countdown through the holidays.

Don’t know if I will be committing suicide soon or not, but it sure has consumed my thoughts as of late.  In years past, I could find some solace in burying myself in my career.  Nowadays it is even difficult to drag my ass out of bed to go to work.  To be honest, I’m surprised I even have a job because I’m so late every day.

I so long to have someone to come home to. Someone I can talk to throughout the day.  Someone I can be intimate with.  I am incapable of getting or maintaining those people in my life.

So I’ll just float on and see if I can make it through my 21st lonely holiday.  If not.  goodbye to all and

Peace.