well.. at the moment ive totally fucked it all up..
i fked up my job, and im back in school.. but still..
i kinda don’t socialize anymore and i don’t really make the effort to see my friends cuz i’m embarrased with myself.. you know how it is.. when you all meet up they ask so what’re you doing now? oh i’m back in school.. im fkin 29 years old..
so i just dont get out there anymore and i’m justifying by telling myself.. ok u get out there when u get ur shit together.. am i being an idiot? i am an idiot anyways. i admit it. now i don’t care and i just want to get my shit straight.. why am i even typing this thing on here.. what the hell
i really shld try to be more positive.. but am i right? is this stupid? me hiding out like this?
there’s a girl thats into me as well.. and she’s shown it.. and waiting for me to make the move.. but i just never did because i tell myself what the fk is the point of having a gf right now.. im jobless! like.. its just not the same when ur not working.. tell me am i being stupid?
anyways peace out
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Hey. It sounds like ur punishing urself for fkn ur life up. I get that ur embarrassed but at least ur trying to turn it around. I’d say just be honest with the chk if she still wants to be arnd aft she finds out ur in school then u’ll kno if she’s the r8 person to be around, I guess
im not punishing (well maybe i am) im just embarrased dude..
well the thing is my last girlfriend we basically broke up because of this.. i told her about all my problems.. im schizo (thats why ive hiccuped my school affairs so much)
but maybe ur right.. on a day to day basis i just live like i should only live until I get my act together..
u know me feeling this way.. its what a lost 20 year old feels like.. don’t where ur going yet..
but maybe ur right.. yolo right? shes kinda cute anyways!
Yep, the one day at a time sounds like a good idea, man.
And hey it’s nice to have some cute girl acknowledge you’re attractive 🙂