The last month has been absolute shit for me.
After 6 months of being alone in Canada, I’m now back with my “family” for a month. I went to a psychiatrist, got new medication (Lithium, among other things), and I’m going to be admitted to an in-patient facility when I go back to Canada in a month.
I have a month to “relax” and “be with my friends”. Right
I’ve been isolating myself, locking myself in my room. I’ve officially started self harming again. My brain won’t stop, it literally won’t shut up or start working. Everything is multiplied.
To make things worse, I found a note in my bedroom that I wrote to my mother when I was 7. I burned it and locked myself in my room with all the smoke.I was taken to the emergency room again.
I hide alcohol in my room, even though I’m not supposed to drink with my medication. I’ve also start binge eating and puking again.
I’m done.