i feel only half alive.

I am from a good family. they love me and I love them. I have friends but I feel lost when im with them. I have everything someone my age would want, but I still feel empty. nothing unexpected ever happens. I do as im told and I never question it. I questioned my mother once and she looked at me like death would, but she didn’t say anything so I just did as she told.

I feel like I am waiting for something to break me free of this constant cycle. all I do is wake up, go to school, do jobs and go to bed. I feel sick, and tired. I just want something to change…