I need interaction

I know it’s not natural to feel the way I feel. Everyone around me in public places either feels a way I have never felt, or knows how to bury any sense of sadness, an unshakable sadness that i’ve been harboring forever. I can’t seem to get rid of this sinking feeling deep in my stomach. It has been with me for years now, and the isolation from everyone doesn’t seem to be helping. I can’t go out and talk about these things with others, they seem too comfortable and secure in their lives, dead set in the ways that seem to keep them from feeling what I feel. I would give anything to feel the way everyone else seems to feel. Is there anyone out there to talk to right now? I need someone who can share with me, understand what I’m feeling. Sometimes I feel like the only one who feels this way. Anyone want to text or email? I could use anyone or anything that can help me, or relate with me right now. I can’t stop from feeling like this. I don’t know how to get it to go away. I can’t honestly say I’ve ever felt happy at any time in the last 5 years.