Ou want me to tell you the pain I’m in now because my past post didn’t justify the reason you I chose to be on this site? Fine. Ever night I think about endin it. Just grabbing my moms pills and shovin them done my throat till I die.
I’m scared of myself because I don’t know my strength. I fear that it will get so bad that my bady won’t be able to take it. I fear the darkness that consumes ever beam of light and leaves me to my own divices. I fear my own mind because it plays tricks on me. Till the point where I sit on my bed rocking back and forth staring into nothing. Now do you believ just how insane I am. Now that I have proved how much pain I’m in, am I officially allowed to be here.
I’d like you to go through what I have been through and say “I’m ok” I’m really not. It’s left me in a pile of hate and distrust.
That’s why I’m the way I am. Because I dont know how else to deal with it. I’m falling apart before me eyes and there is nothing I can do. And I would never in a million years let anyone in to help mold me back to the way I was before.
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Your in a lot of pain and insane enough. No doubt about that. Clearly, you would be better off if you were wrong about the way you are looking at things. If you were wrong, you might be more at ease. Tread gently now. Find someone to talk with.