I don’t know whether to drive about an hour and off myself by a lake or rent a motel room. The lake is remote, and the shot won’t draw attention as lots of people shoot guns in the area. Big drawback is my car, not sure where it would wind up. I’d sort of like it easy for my relatives to get. By doing it at the motel, the shot may draw attention if enough people are around. And it will leave a mess and damage. Bug it’s close by and my car would be local. I guess I really shouldn’t be concerned, as my number one priority is offing myself. Has anyone else thought about locations and why you’d do it there?
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A lake is more peaceful. More serene. You will have the time and tranquility that can only be given by secluding yoursel in nature and that will have the dual purpose of allowing you the chance to reflect on your decision as well as providing you with seclusion to prevent anybody from impeding your actions or affecting your resolve. As for your car, perhaps a very last minute text to someone about your location?
I tried to end it in a peaceful location for me. Its actually one of my treasure hunting spots, where I dive,and in fact was there just yesterday (not for suicide though).
An area of open water, subject to strong currents, I had gone there some nights before my attempt because I guess you can say I “sensed” I knew what my wife was doing (cheating), and wanted peace. I made the resolve to do it there in the middle of the night, absolutely noone around, and there wasn’t.
If I ever attempt again, it will be in a place like that for sure. I just hope I never get that depressed again in the future, but who knows.
But at least I know where to go.
Do the lake the lake sounds so much more serene,but if you feel weird being away from people for too long or get anxiety and panic attacks do the hotel you’ll still ‘be with the world’