I have a boyfriend (as you all know) and because of him I try not to think about, you know, suicide and other dark thoughts. But right now it’s very hard for me cause he isn’t answering my emails. His emails just suddenly stopped! And I’m very worried… I don’t know what to do. I’ve been pacing the room, mailing him again and again, messaging him, my last resort is to try calling him but I can’t cause my mom doesn’t approve of him and doesn’t want me having contact with him so calling would mean she’d find out. I know, since I’m suicidal, I shouldn’t have a boyfriend, I should stay single so that I don’t hurt someone because they would loose a loved girlfriend if I did kill myself, but I seriously love this guy and I think he might even get me to stop thinking of suicide at all!
It’s right of me to worry, right? I mean, I’m not just overly attached and paranoid, right? Cause I don’t want to be like that but he’s like the only person that really keeps me grounded! Without him I’d have been long gone. He is kinda suicidal too cause before he met me he was ready to go drown himself (he told me so himself and his family confirms it) my mom and family is unaware of me being suicidal. Cause they think that I don’t have any reason to be suicidal, I have lots of reasons, but I’ll tell you those another time, right now I’m just worried sick!!! What do I doooooo!? I can’t go over cause its dark out and I’m not allowed to leave the house when it’s after 8 anyway…
I tried keeping myself occupied by doing homework, chatting with others, listening to some music etc. but it all reminds me of him! Homework, cause I usually sit in his lap as he helps me with homework and we talk while I do homework too. Chat, cause I usually chat a lot with him around this time. Music, all the music I have on my iPod is in one way or another connected to him…
I don’t want to stop thinking of him but I’m just so darn worried…
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If you don’t want to stop thinking about your friend, no one can make you do so. However, you can see that it is driving you nuts. Therefore, you should really consider whether focusing your attention on him is helpful. Yes, you love him, want him, dream of him. And, yes, that also drives you crazy.
Here’s the problem: Craziness is not love. It is a crush. Not that it is not real. It is real; it just is not real love.
You might consider talking to a counselor at school. Good luck.
Then…
What’s the definition of true love?
g.w you got it all wrong !! it is true love .you cant define true love because its when the heart,wants an needs someone so bad its all they think on -so blow it out your ass,its ppl like u always say the stupid things an ppl never get togeather because of stupid advice!!its the time togeather,the time to chat ,laugh ,cry ,thats what u have sissi an dont ever let go of it cause you are loved heart an soul,now allways an forever
Thank you
Any kind of relationship requires some occasional space, perhaps he just needed some time to himself, I wouldn’t worry about it too much. Don’t assume the worst in people, he’ll respond eventually and then you can see what it was all about. Learn to have some autonomy while you’re given this opportunity to be alone 🙂
Doesn’t really keep me from worrying at times but thanks.
Most of the time if a woman wants her “space”, it means she is ‘getting some” from a guy on the side, if you know what I mean.
Just ask my “wife”.
Well, I’m the girl here and he’s the guy and I really doubt he’d do something like that and I’m very sorry what happened between you and your “wife”, maybe it was a dumb mistake on her side?
hell would freeze an the devel put on ice skates before she would be cheated on, fact!