There are so many people out there with big problems and here I am upset about small things like scars. Just looking down to observe them upsets me, thinking people were able to get me down so much. Thinking there could’ve been a better solution to deal with it but instead, it was all my fault I was being judged, taking it out on myself.
lemme take it back so I didn’t make myself, basically, a monster.
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Your problems are not small to you; they are huge and seeming insurmountable. Do yourself a favor and not compare yourself in an effort to obscure it. They are so big that self mutilation is how you deal with it. You give yourself the name/title of Monster.
Yes, you have made mistakes about how to deal with the powerful forces that are a part of you. You have gone so far as to attempt, as the cutters do, of trying to tame them by cutting your body. Of course, the forces are energetic, psychic forces that do not really respond to the body or to pain. In reality you are simply saying, “yes” to shame and the cutting/bleeding/scars represent this decision. You look on them and feel defeat and shame.
Confession is good for the soul. Again, find someone to talk with face to face about your struggle with shame and guilt. Facing them works toward alleviation of the condition. Why? Because when you look at them squarely, you will not want them and will choose differently.
Good luck, Love.
G.W.
Hey.
Well, can’t say much after what G.W already told you.
I do not htink it is wise to say “Hey, someone got it worse than me, I shouldn’t be complaining.” Then, if someone as a better life than you, you shouldn’t be happy…
In either situation, it makes no sense. Comparing your situation with other is irrelevant. What is relevant is what you live, what you feel. If you feel bad enough tu cut yourself, then you FEEL bad enough to do it… (I don’t know if you understand what I mean, I have some issues expressing myself in english).
It’s not like “Hey, I do not have the right to complain because nothing very terrible happened to me”. It’s just a fact. A fact is real as are those scars, and they do not make you a monster, but just a mere human having trouble dealing with issues in his life. Nothing really monstrous, don’t you think ?
Well, my mind ain’t really clear today, so, sorry if I’m not making any sense, and sorry if I’m bothering you.
See you and take care.
“I do not htink it is wise to say “Hey, someone got it worse than me, I shouldn’t be complaining.†Then, if someone as a better life than you, you shouldn’t be happy…”
Nice. I like that.