My problem is myself

I’m gonna get right Into this, so my main problem is just myself. I mean everyday I look in the mirror and I know and acknowledge every little flaw. Some of the kids at school think it’s fun to call me names like ugly or fat or worthless. They act like I don’t know that already. My parents would tell me “sticks and stones may break my bones but names will never hurt me”, when the truth is, I would rather get my arms and legs broken rather then have to hear all if the different names ringing in my ear And through my head.  I compare myself to my friends and sometimes family. At nights I cry myself to sleep and think if suicide but I’m to chicken to actually go through with it. I’m afraid to ask someone for help ir even tell my family because I’m afraid they’ll just laugh at it or that my friends will say I’m asking for attention. That what almost everyone thinks. I must be right to call myself ugly and fat because if no one even tried to tell me other wise. I’m just a worthless thing that would make everyone happy if I just disappeared. My parents probably just think I’m a disappointment.