Numb or “happy”?

Tomorrow I’m going to hangout with my boyfriend. I don’t want to be depressed I want to try and enjoy seeing one of the very few people whaci love and can make me happy. So I decided to take my anti-depressant just for tonight so I won’t be mega super sad tomorrow. It’s had a possibility of making me a zombie but at least then I can fake it well enough not to ruin our day together I just want him to hold me in our fort and watch old movies. I think tho that i might be okay tomorrow i hope at least.