real or fake??

i watched my brother hang by a rope. his feet just a foot of the ground. my best friend was dead. the one that meant and means the world to me left me with a snap of a fingure. i watched his face. i watched him sway back and fourth.. i saw my world crash down infront of me… no more goofy laugh.. no more beautiful smile… no more memories made… just pain. just a heart crying out of help while everyone ignores your exsistant… watch my dad hold that gun to his head trying to leave right beside him… i took a knief slit my wrist… while blood running down my arm no one cares… i cut him down.. kiss him one last time.. lay there waiting to die.. finally someone realizes how bad it is… i wanted him not to be saved</3