There’s Nothing For Me

Welcome to the club, while I have my friends and family I am very sad and lonely. I think however though I can blame everyone around me for my state in life, in hindsight I really was my own worst enemy.

While I’ve dated some women, that was just a fraction of those I could’ve had, if I didn’t stop myself. Either it was because I felt insecure or depressed or whatever-there was always a reason I never approached more women and I could’ve completely ended my loneliness already, had I just taken action.

I’m not saying it’s easy to overcome one’s weaknesses and issues that prevent us from making a positive difference in our life, however it is ultimately our own self that says ‘nah don’t bother, she won’t want you’…basically sabotaging your own opportunities before you could even take a chance.

Anyways, that’s just one of the reasons I want to end my life. Being in my 40s now, I have far less opportunities than I used to with women. I’m also still focused on improving myself and my life-I plan to give it one last try and if over the next few years things don’t go as hoped, then I might bring it to an end. I’m not really living for much anyways. I’m pretty unhappy with my life, I make a modest income and just not in the state I had hoped to be by this age.