So what can i really say here that probably hasn’t already been lamented 1,000 times. Regardless, here is my suck ass tale of woe. I’ll keep it short. I’m a woman married to a boring man who is sucking my soul from me. He has been depressed since he sustained a serious injury years ago. His constant pity partying has worn me down, now I am throwing one of my very own. I have tried to be strong. I have resorted to Buddhism to try and see life differently, but Buddha is not helping. Where is the peace? Every time I see my husband and his Opie (Peter Griffin’s brewery boss) looking visage I want to hurlscreamrun. I suggest things to do but all he cares about is sleeping and being boring. I do all of his college work because he can’t. Learning is my only refuge, actually. I’m teaching myself things to try and stay sane and distract myself from my shitty life, but it’s not enough. I want love from a strong man who knows how to screw and be an individual. Is that so much? He does not have to be perfect because I damn sure ain’t…and what the hell have I done to deserve this? A sexless marriage to a sloppy, disgusting, boring and willfully stupid ogre. Â The daughter we have together is bad as shit. Right now, she is in the kitchen jacking it up. More shit for me to clean later, yay. She does not listen and she is like the icing on the cake to my fucked up life. The kid makes me wish I was dead too. How did this demon spawn come out of me? They both are slurping the life force from my being. Her favorite words are NO and I WANT. I just want to vanish into thin air. No, better yet, I want to swallow a mini grenade and explode to bits right on their surprised faces. Let them be fucked up for life the way they are fucking my life up. What a fantasy. I am too much of a coward to actually off myself, in fact I am a health nut. Probably the only thing keeping me stable is my diet and exercise routine. Soon I have to go clean the kitchen behind the Princess’ goddamned cookie baking (read: epic mess) because Opie damn sure will be crashed out sleep by 8 while watching another rousing re-run of SVU or whateverthefuck, because heavens forbid he be an actual man and wash his nasty ass and try to seduce his wife. Fuck. Speaking of fuck, did i mention dildos are the only things I get to screw because he has Low T and ED? I can’t cheat because even though I think I fall into “decent” looking chick category, I evidently just ooze man repellent and I can’t find a dude that wants to pay me any attention. I’m just all around pathetic. Why won’t a meteorite strike me when I am out jogging and put me out of my fucking misery?
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Um,
Your argument ended in the beginning of your post.
Fact is, and I’ll say it like it is,,,,,, you are pathetic alright.
First, he IS your husband……….
Second,,,,, you DID promise to be with him forever.
Third…. He had an accident? He is suffering himeslf……. and you complain?????
How about YOU get him some help maybe?
You dont sound any better than the wife I had, a piece of shit who abandons their mate, especially when they need you most.
Get off your high horse……
Thats the problem with a lot of spouses/people today……. if they “arent happy” they just want to jump ship.
And you have a daughter too?
Yes you are pathetic.
Here is a clue…. BE THERE FOR YOUR HUSBAND AND KID.
You know, i believe WIG is right in that you have to support your husband regarding his injury, and your daughter… well it’s YOUR daughter, your husband and you are responsable for what the is know, but i don’t really know your situation… i know the opossite, having an injury/sickness and losing the woman i loved because of that (it took less time than on your case, but we weren’t married and we both made mistakes).
What i learned from my case is that if you love him, you should make him SEE the things you believe are affecting you and breaking your family, tell him, talk to him about it, explain him what you really feel… it can take years for someone to recover from an injury because of the psychological implications of it, sometimes the mental damage is far more than the one the injury caused.
If after all that he still doesn’t understand (and by talking to him i mean TALKING, not fighting), then i guess either he’s in denial or you should do something a bit more drastic to make him understand… as i said before i don’t know your situation or what his injury is, but i know for sure, if the one i loved would have been more honest with me about how things were affecting her (instead of just enduring it until she couldn’t take anymore), and she would have give me another chance to make things right, i sure would have done everything i could.
My wife wasnt interested in talking. she was interested in the guys she had lined up on her iphone. Im just glad I didn’t fuck her since Jan coz Im sure she had been around more than enough and is likely a walking STD by now.
Why are you so full of hatred for the ‘whale’, WIG? Can’t you – as a Christian – forgive her after this time?
coz she still isn’t finished with me yet. I have more fighting to do just to keep what is mine and avoid her ruining my life further.
But will anger help you? If you don’t want to you will never have to speak to her again. And about the organizational issues: Settle it once and for all (lawyer?) and then forget about it as fast as possible.
Maybe if you go to her and offer her a ‘peace treaty’, your soul will find peace as well.
Im jsut leaving it alone, dont want to be bothered by it or her right now.
WIG: Actually i understand your anger, but i made the point of talking and trying to address problems for 212121, because i believe she made the post looking for some advice or venting a bit… i did not like much the fact she complaint so much about her husband and daughter, but i can see her side as well… a man is supossed to be… well a man in his relationships, and there’s just a limit to what a person can deal with regarding neglect and loneliness… and for what she has said it’s been years… i learned to see that the hard way (losing someone as i’ve said several times, and because i understood that i don’t blame her, even if i still love her but i couldn’t see her soon even if i want to… mixed feelings at it’s best haha).
On your case well… it was completely different, you had to deal with someone that really broke your trust and acted awfully towards you… but that doesn’t mean every woman complaining is the same as your exwife, even if she sounds similar on the way she expresses her frustration.
And i do agree with ClairDeLune that when you are ready maybe you should look for some peace of mind by offering a “peace treaty” or just by doing something that takes the anger away from you… because in the end, it only harms you.
I don’t think anyone should be lashed out at and belittled by regular SP users (really doesn’t matter what religious affiliations they have).
Honestly WIG, if you have that much anger against your wife, don’t take it out on people posting on SP. Calling someone pathetic twice is extremely harsh as was your entire response.
Would not it have been better not to comment than to respond with such vitriol?
Damn wig…I guess this Buddha thing works in mysterious ways. Have i met the mirror of my self in cyberspace? Profound. I don’t want to be like you. I must change. Thank you for being.